Happy Monday! Grab your coffee, tea, or wine and let’s get started! So my blog is posted Mondays usually before noon except when we have our book club posts. However, today is Sunday, and I am only now starting to write this week’s blog. This week has been a very challenging week, and I mean that in the most positive way possible. I have experienced so much growth this week, and I have to say that I have learned from many mistakes. I struggle with listening to my heart and listening to myself sometimes. This week has been an example of that. I have let so many other people’s opinions change the way I react to things, which was a huge mistake. It ended up making me question things that I have never questioned before. However, when I realized that I was doing that, I learned from it and grew. Although this is not today’s topic, I wanted to remind you all to follow your values and your heart, but if you make a mistake grow from it. You are stronger than you think, but trust me, you’ll look back and see it one day.
Today, I want to talk about COVID. I KNOW! I am tired of hearing about it too. However, this week I am going back to UNIVERSITY! AHHHHH. Well, not technically back. I start online university classes. To be completely honest to you all, I am TERRIFIED. I am so scared that I am not going to be able to succeed in online classes, or that I am going to have an anxiety attack halfway through because I am so isolated. When people ask me if I am excited, I can’t say yes because I AM TERRIFIED. I have discussed this with many people. You know when COVID first started, and everyone was freaking out/ having mental break downs. I was perfectly fine. I believed it was going to end faster than it began. However, I was wrong. I was fine all summer too, but now going back, I am cracking.
So, How am I staying motivated? Honestly, I really didn’t know. I organized everything that I could possibly organize. I planned as much as I could plan. I even started reading my semester’s readings. Nothing was making me feel better. That leads me back to why I am writing today. I scheduled a meeting with my friend from France. I always love speaking to my friends from all over the place because it makes me feel less isolated, but speaking with her was different. It made me feel back on track. We talked about everything from COVID to what is the definition of GOOD. It really inspired me to look at things from a different perspective. I thought about how many challenges I have faced, and my growth throughout each challenge. I have failed, fallen down, and even given up, but the times I overcame these challenges are the times I’ve grown the most. The more I thought about it, the more I realized this applied to my life next week.
So, Instead of going into next week scared, I will be next week knowing I can face these challenges and come out stronger. If I fail, it will be a lesson. If I succeed, then I will continue finding a way to grow. I am always looking for challenges that allow me to push my limit and looking at failure as a way to succeed and learn. This will enable me to acknowledge my limitations and find a better work-life balance. To conclude this post, I want to remind you that life is all about testing what works best for you. You need to find your balance, and trying something new is a great way to discover it. Have a wonderful week. I look forward to next week’s post.
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